Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Psalm 27

Dear Lord, I praise you and thank you for another day. Summer is going slow at some points and then really fast at other times. But today I am at the point where I would like to get through June. I am not sure what it is, but I am feeling a bit down today. I am sure it is something with me and something I need Your power and strength to get through, but still feel a bit of oppression. This is not an uncommon feeling when I am in the midst of writing a message or when You are about to move in my/our lives. I recognize that and am thankful to be aware of that though at times like today it is tough!

So Lord, in Your awesomeness and Your perfect and timely provision You took me to Psalm 27.

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.

Could those words be more timely? Oh thank you Lord. I know that Satan is looking to discourage me and keep me from seeking You, but NO! You popped me right out of bed - well I hit snooze once or twice, ha! - and brought me to Your words to encourage me! Thank you thank you! My heart was crying out to You and without even a word spoken because many times I don't even know what my heart is saying - I have trouble expressing it in words - You reveal yourself and comfort my heart! Thank you thank you! My confidence is in You! My hope is in you! My love is for you and my heart is seeking all of You!

4 One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.

Lord, the above verse is what I want more than anything. You can do away with all the material stuff - at least there would be much less to clean - I really think I would be ok with that. But I want to dwell in your presence. I want to seek you and be found. I want to know Your plan for me/us and then DO it! This living in limbo is tough. Maybe that is the whole thing. Patience??? I just need a word from You, Lord. I need to know, but maybe that is just it - NO, I DON'T NEED TO KNOW!

7 Hear my voice when I call, O LORD; be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, "Seek his
face!" Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me, do not turn your servant away in anger; you have been my helper. Do not reject me or forsake me, O God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, O LORD; lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors.

Lord, the verses above is what my heart is screaming out. BUT I know You hear my voice when I cry out. I know You are merciful and will answer me. I just need to make sure I am in the position to hear and receive. Get me there, Lord. DO what you have to do. Oh that is scary! But in You I put my trust. Increase my faith Lord Jesus! What sin in my life do I need to confess? Show me Lord! I know You will never forsake me or reject me! Thank you! Teach me Your way and keep me on Your straight path! I want to live in Your will whatever that may be!!

Today the sitter is coming because I have 2 Dr. appointments! Yuck! BuI i am excited to get out and just drive the car with no interruptions and listen to my music. Ha ha! Be near me Lord, speak to me, and give me a heart of obedience! Thank you for what you have shown me today!

I love you!


Amelia said...

Thank you for your message on my voicemail last week. I was thinking about how I hadn't had a chance to just sit with Leigh in a while, so it was great to hear your voice. I am in Wake Forest now...1 day until Thailand! I am eager to go with the Lord...I know He is calling me and pursuing me, aren't we blessed to be His bride! I love you and I miss you and I was so thankful to get your update via email. I am praying for you during this time and I am thanking God for the influence you have had on my life!

The Ewing Family said...

Leigh...your writings are so special and heartfelt. I am so blessed to know that you and I are getting to know each other, even if it is only as e-mail pals!