Wow Lord, so many amazing things going on and I thank you. This morning I find myself in Mark 9:46-48. Disciples are arguing with one another about who is the greatest.
Can you imagine sitting around with a bunch of friends arguing about who was the greatest among the group? Wow, the words may never fall out of our mouths, but how so often the actions do from our "selves". And I would add that the speaker world or ministry world might be one of the worst places where false humility or camouflaged seeking of greatness may be. But I will say that you must have been there at one time or another to know what I am talking about... Yikes - there is a punch right to my own gut!
Lord, I think the vision you have given for me this morning is that the small child that the Lord said that his disciples "welcomes" is much like the small church that I have such a passion for. There is not much glamor, lights, frill, or accolades in ministering to the "child". In fact most the world says that you must not be accomplished if you are not traveling to big time places or filling auditoriums by the thousands. Even my own denomination will not consider you accomplished until you have published a book - and really that book must be through their own publishing company. That sinks!
But if you could look into my heart - and only my Lord and Savior can do that - you would see such a changed picture. From the days of sitting around and thinking about how I might be the greatest to now sitting around and thinking about my own community and how to make a difference there or finding a way that each of our speakers can make a difference in the area in which they live.
Lord, so many people say - not sure if it is with a prayerful heart or not - that IT is coming. I am not sure what they are talking about, but I think IT is here. Ministry right in my back yard. Clay and I discussing a new adventure possibly in our own church. I have been invited to speak down the road from my house. My tennis team is full of girls with great potential. One girl on my team told me she will be fasting for the next month in honor of a Muslim Holiday. (Her sister's fiance' played Nedal last night at the US Open - Deheart. How cool is that!!) The conference is moving forward and Clay and I have important meeting about in on Tuesday.
I think IT is here for my life. Not what I would have expected and certainly not what I would have wanted maybe 2 or 3 years ago. But when you open your life up to Him and say change my heart - HE will and is doing it still!! He does it beautifully, but not always painlessly - actually rarely painlessly!! But my heart is fresh and it is new. He is renewing my day by day and on His time table. I am tender! He is ever more so! I love you Father!