506 - I need wisdom!!!

Dear Lord, here we are at day 2 of the New Year. I love being on a schedule and having much discipline and reason to get up much earlier than everyone else. I love being able to sit down at 10am and breath deeply thinking about all that has already been accomplished in the heavenly realm just through quiet time and prayer. Thank you for your power Lord.

I find myself at Prov. 1:7 today. "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline." I am in need of some serious wisdom. Nothing too major going on, I just need much wisdom. The fact of having 4 growing and constantly changing young kids, a new ministry with great potential, a husband with dreams, and the need to do things with excellence - that is reason enough to need much wisdom.

My newest adventure starts on Friday. I have been asked by our local college to teach a college course at Carmi's high school. It is called Health Occupations, but basically is Anatomy and Physiology. It is for those that want to go into some kind of healthy occupation such as nursing and this is an introductory class. They receive college credit, etc. I have to say I am not sure why we push our kids so much. We - I - do it so much when they are young, but why do they need to finish high school and be a sophomore ready for college. I know money and that whole issue, but I say stay in college as long as possible. I don't mean 7 years, but don't rush it! It is the time of your life and there is no need to grow up and do life. You have the rest of your life to do that! Ok - that was my little tangent or soapbox. Plus it is that much less time you have to figure out what you what to do with your life as far as major............. slow down! So I have been hired to help the young ones to hurry up - sort of. I am excited, but scared too!

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge" - Lord Jesus, from what I understand the fear is the reverent fear we associate with knowing you. This means this is like the head of knowledge. As if knowledge was a whole body and fear is the head - from what my commentary said. Oh Lord, that is what I need. I feel like I do revere you, but do I really. Do i take you seriously and follow all your leads? I am sure not all the time. My life is so busy i hate to think the things I mess from You. Lord, please clear my head so that I can hear correctly. Lord, I want to have such a fear for you that I desperately seek your will with all "earnestness". Being out of your will, even innocently, is not what I long to do. I know you can make perfect that which I just innocently miss or mess up, but I want to get things right the first time! Your power is too great to miss so help me to see. I want my body of knowledge to work correctly so that even my eating, breathing, looking, etc. brings you much honor!

I don't want to be a fool as seen in this scripture. It says they despise wisdom and discipline. Lord, despise is a really strong word. I would say it is up there with hate. Yikes!! I know I don't hate wisdom, but sometimes I don't like discipline very much at all. It seems to me, just going out on a limb here, but wisdom is like knowledge only aged at bit. A young thang might have much knowledge - a whipper snapper - but it is wisdom through life experience that puts the knowledge into work. Wisdom here is to be wise and skillful, always used in a positive sense, and used in the sens of a skill to describe a whole range of human experiences. SO i don't think I am too far off, right, Lord? Fear is the head of knowledge and knowledge is the head of wisdom...

And discipline - oh goodness, we just have to go here. For me i know what this is speaking about. This discipline denotes correction that leads to education. And when we are educated properly we see change and results - hello extra weight!! It is a discipline issue doesn't matter how you slice it. I am about to meet a friend to go running in our high school. This is just the beginning of discipline. It must follow me all day no matter how much I hate it! When you put this way it really speaks volumes - "Leigh, fear is the beginning of knowledge, but Leigh you are a fool to despise wisdom in any form I bring it to you and a fool to despise and reject discipline that needs to take place in your life. My Bible even states that a fool in the OT is one that is morally deficient. hmmmmmmmm - that puts a new spin on it as well.

Lord, I just want to follow. I want to have an abandonment to all things except you. I want to thirst for nothing but you. I want to be filled with nothing but you!! Oh Lord, increase my thirst and hunger for you. Increase my passion and love. Grow my intensity to do your will! I don't want to be a fool. I don't want to despise your correction and wisdom!! I don't want to ignore the knowledge!!! Lord, guide me and lead me!!! Forgive me!!! I love you!!