Monday, May 18, 2009

724 - Back to Basics

Dear Lord Jesus - it has been a long time since I have just sat down and written out a note to You in this form.  I feel a call of getting back to the basics.  Vlogging has made me quite lazy, I think.  If i can not find a good way to word the Word to put on the video blog from YOU - then I say nothing at all.  It has made me lazy and my quiet time lazy!  I have always been a journaler since back in 5th grade and I don't ever want to stop.  But i see over the past 9 months or so I have gotten very lazy.  Father, forgive me and thank you for making this apparent to me.  

There are so many things going on that I can not afford for one second to be lazy or slack in anything especially my time with You.  I have had my quiet time consistently for the most part, but because of this lack of writing out my thoughts it does not solidify things for me.  AND i find that my prayers are not as specific and "vocal" as they used to be.  Kind of just say it and go on about the day.  Back to basics is the call and a "ridding" of anything that can enable pride!  

Lord, you have led me to do a few things on my blog as well.  I have discarded the "look where people are coming from" thing.  I have deleted my site meter thingy too.  It really has nothing to do with the viewers, but just something the Lord said - do away with!  Time waster, idol grower, and heart deflater.  How, I am not really exactly sure how, but God said it and so I did it!  For now, those are the 2 that had to go - what is next, my Lord?  

My heart is rolling with anticipation and excitement.  I want to follow you, Lord!!  Show me what it is!  Some of the things I don't even know where to begin!  The radio deal is a real deal and something I know you want me to do, but how do I get started.  I feel alone in this endeavor.  I know I am not and I know I have the support of the station, but Lord, what is this going to look like and how to I even begin? I was voicing this on my run the other day and at the same time the song by Meredith Andrews came on - Your Not Alone - no coincidence I know!!!  Thank you Father for speaking to me at that time when I needed to know.  

Lord, other things I need to know Your will on.......

Do i coach boys tennis if it were an option next year?
Do I have a Bible study for my SS class this summer?
How do I start the radio show?
Resolution Conference preparations?
2nd Chance Prom?
Marriage Retreat?
Devotion Writing?
Online Message topic?
Book sales and buying of??
Sell of House?

So many things are just thoughts, good thoughts, but Lord, I want to know what you would have me to do!  I don't want to leave something out, but I don't want to do too much too! 

Been in Ps. 18 today.  Verse 20 is repeated more than once - "The Lord has dealt with me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands he has rewarded me."   Oh Lord, let that sink in and help me to find understanding, wisdom, and peace in Your Word.  The walk of Faith is about what we do - it is about relationships, but what we do in them as well.  Lord, help me to walk in your righteousness and in your mercy too!  I love you Lord!!  

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh Girl I am right there with you!

What can I do for you? How can I lighten this load a bit?

Please call out and call on me.

Mary R Snyder said...

well, that previous comment just came through as anonymous. Not my intent - finger slipped.

So you know, it's me Mary, who made that offer to help.

Now, I just think it's funny that I made the offer to help you as Anonymous!

April said...

Man - could you see into MY thoughts today, too!? I'm with you - I want to see what the Lord wants me to do. Our lives can be full of good things, but if they're not God's things, it just doesn't work, does it!? Sometimes it's easy for me to confuse the two. I don't want to just DO something - I want to do what GOD has for me to do! You're not alone, and you remember that always! :-) Talk to you soon!

Denise said...

Amen sweetie.

Speaking Thru Me Ministries said...

Mary S - you crack me up. Before you sent the other message I was wracking my brain to think who could want to help, but wanted to help without being known. ha ha!!

Thank you for your sweetness!! My brain is turning and I have some thoughts coming together!!!

I have some ideas and I will let you know when i get a clearer vision!! I am pumped!! Thank you my sweet friend!! You are priceless!

Speaking Thru Me Ministries said...

April and Denise - thank you for the encouragement!! love to you - Leigh