God only you allow me to be real! I mean so often I do have friends that take me just as I am (Courtney, Melissa G, Val, Patricia, TJ, etc!!), but even yesterday in my prayer to You about my struggles I got an email from a well meaning person "encouraging" me to not be so real on the blog as it might cause another to stumble or walk away from the faith. I thought "walk away from the faith" was a bit strong!!!!!!!!
Lord, I have to be true to my walk with you and if i struggle, which i do, i cannot hide it. Satan wants me to hide it and act like I am always 100% happy, pleased, content, and in His perfect will! I am not!!!!!!! Lord, i am so thankful that you know my heart!! U know me better than I know me and for that i am so thankful!!
This morning you led me to Ps. 67 in such a way as to implore me to keep pressing forward and sharing in every way - even thru the bad - how wonderful and redemptive You are!!! I will Lord!! "May God be gracious to us and bless us and make his face shine upon us, that your ways may be know on earth, your salvation among all nations." "May the nations be glad and sing for joy!"
Oh Father - i thank you!! i still feel rushed in life. I still feel like my kids are getting the brunt end of me right now. I still feel like a chicken with its head cut off - oh BUT!!!!!! i feel your grace and mercy oozing over me!! I feel your love and hugs squeezing me tightly!! That is only you!!! Thank you for allowing me to be real!! Truly I love you Lord!!! Off to work and then on to Carbondale, Il. for a tennis meeting!!
I love you!!