629 - I am an Island

Lord Jesus, what a gorgeous day yesterday. Wow oh wow!! Thank you Lord. My tennis girls were complaining about how hot it was - I reminded them to think about what it felt like with "snow boots" on their legs. Hee hee - they didn't laugh too much!

The doctor kind of scared the dickins out of me yesterday. He came in and sat right next to me - very close kind of in my space - and said that I was a very lucky girl! He said I all but crushed my 2 heel bones. That is the big bone in your foot I think called the tarsal. He said technically they were not broken, but there was major swelling of the bone going on. Edema was another word. He had to call the radiologist while looking at the film to confirm what he saw and read. He went on to say that he rarely sees this kind of accident and actually only has gone to conferences to learn about this. Oh great!! He said I will be in my boots for another 3-4 weeks and am to be very careful. If i do feel much pain and begin to digress in this healing process then I must get off the foot or both feet. There is very limited supply of blood to that bone and that alone can make healing a booger. So that is where I am. I would still greatly appreciate your prayers as I am not real good at sitting down and not doing anything. I am having a tough time with visions of how big my backside is getting with all the great foo I am being brought and the lack of movement in my life. I might go back to crutches just so I get some kind of workout. ha ha NOT!

Well, this morning the Lord had me back in Mark 9:14-29 with the father bringing the boy that was demon possessed and the disciples not being able to heal him. So the boy's father, assuming not KNOWING the Lord, ask IF He could do it, would He? Jesus patiently replied that "everything is possible for him who believes." I love that the dad kind of shouted I do believe, but then quickly admitted that he needed help with his belief - sounds like so many of my prayers!

Lord, You had me look at this in a very different - take responsibility kind of perspective - way. Because the disciples were not able to heal this boy - we find out because a lack of prayer at the end of the account - it possibly caused the boy's father to doubt the ability of Jesus to heal as well. If the father would not have had any doubt he would not have included IF in his statement to the Healer of every disease. Oh goodness!!!!!! Conviction!!!!!

There are times in my life that I know I have been very faithless. Many times in my life that I have spoken doubt.........out loud! I know there are countless times that I have acted in a way that would make others, even Christians, questions the very power of God.

You see, the boy's father must have heard about the awesome things that the disciples and certainly Jesus were doing in others' lives. He saw the crowds and wanted help for his son too. Not approaching Jesus first for whatever reason, he called on the disciples to work the Power! It didn't work. They were unable to make him well. They were unable to use the power of God that is available within each and every believer to do what they had been called to do - display His glory. I feel like the father walked away from that moment disappointed, at best, that these guys could not help his son! Because of the disciples lack of prayer, I am assuming, this father walked away with the doubt of not knowing whether the REAL guy could do it or not.

My actions, reactions, and even interactions affect someone. I can not go through life thinking that what I do will not have some kind of impact on others...it will. I honestly get very nervous what older kids, especially babysitters, I allow my kids to be around. I am so afraid of what I am going to have to explain to my girls that so and so did. A certain conversation that I should not be having to have at their ages. That so and so that my girls think hung the moon and want to be just like did whatever it may be. (Yes, I realize some day moms may be very well having to explain what one of my daughters have done to their kids...........oh Lord help!)

I must take responsibility for myself realizing that I am bringing others closer to the Lord or in fact repulsing them from Christianity and THE Savior. My very thoughts or heart intentions always come to the surface and are played out by my actions. Do they tell others to trust the Lord or do they cause others to question the power, authority, and awesomeness of my Lord? We are not an island nor do any of us live on an island!