Thursday, February 12, 2009

688 - Purpose Driven............ Day

One of my biggest faults is not seeing the forest for the trees.  I get so tunnel vision.  I am the type of person to not see the whole picture and therefore get very frustrated at what I see or decide is going on...... in my life, in the church, with my family, or even in road construction.  

God has placed me in a full-time job for at least 5 weeks.  I am the elementary teacher for  K-3rd grades.  So far, after one day, I love it.  Before I received this assignment I had already applied to go get my master's with a teaching certificate.  I have everything, but my substitute teaching, but have to go this direction instead of starting all over.  It could work......if i get accepted.  I do horribly on standardized test and have to take 2 to get in.  It nearly is enough to just say forget it.  We shall see.  If it is normal book work and such I do honors, but being timed in a test for a long period - freaks me out and I don't do well at all.  We shall see. 

I was reading in Luke 19 this morning about the Triumphal Entry of Jesus.  I was struck by a person in this account that might have lost his focus or at least wondered why is this happening.  Jesus told his guys to go into town and they would find a donkey there that had never been ridden.  Take it and tell the owners that it was for the Lord.  I wonder about the owners.  

Were they going about their day and all of a sudden had an inclination to tie up their donkey in this spot?  Was the owner just thinking the day before about all the things he wanted to do in life and they just have not come about?  Was he wondering why all the things he was about seemed so insignificant?  Walking through the town was he intrigued with all the other things people were doing that looked so important?  He was just tieing up his donkey right here.  

Then for a reason or was it for no reason he came over to this particular post and tied the donkey.  Was he a follower of Christ and knew this was his mission in life?   Did he have any clue that the tieing of that donkey would be used for the King of the Universe to fulfill His mission on earth?  It was a purpose driven day and yet I want to know if the man that had the donkey for the Lord of ALL to use that day had any idea HOW he was being used?  

We are so often used just like that man that tied the donkey.  God in His infinite wisdom is detailing our every breath with ways, missions, and purposes beyond our comprehension.  Do we always know when we are being used for a great purpose such as the King being able to fulfill His great mission through us?  No!  That is a mystery of God and something we don't need to understand.  My job and my understanding is that I need to quit looking at the forest and even the trees.  I need to be focused on the Cross and my Savior.  If i would just look for my Savior in everything then I would not be concerned whether I get to do what I think are significant things.  If I would trust His plan and leading then I would not be bothered by those around me that seem to have "cooler" assignments.  

God i do trust you, but I get so sidetracked and focus-lost!  Forgive me Jesus.  Help me to watch for the Savior on the horse and not the person that provided the horse.  Oh Lord Jesus, I worship you, but not near enough and not in the way you deserve or even intend!!  Lord, keep my eyes on You and my focus on You!  May I go about my day with the thoughts of worshipping You in everything realizing I am living a purpose whether i know it or not!!  I love you Lord!  


Anonymous said...

I think we could all say that prayer about 50 million times a day.Thank yo so much for sharing with me.

fuzzytop said...

Leigh - You are teaching Kindedrgarten through 3rd grade???!!! Wow! I'm praying for you girl...

I loved your thoughts and prayer - I see myself in your writing.


Kelly @ The Barefoot Mama said...

What a wonderful message, Leigh! I was a Kindergarten teacher for two years in my life before two daughters (now I'm a SAHM), and I remember the certification tests well! (Seems like just yesterday but it was 8 years they've changed even in that kind of short amount of time, LOL!). Praying that everything goes wonderfully smooth for you - bless you for being a teacher, it's a wonderful role!