Tuesday, May 19, 2009

725 - But I just wanna!

Dear Heavenly Father - had one of those moments this morning - I just wanted to indulge just because I wanted to.  I know you have lead me away from soft drinks and stuff like that with caffeine, but this morning I wanted to break the obedience and just chug a whole gallon or at least a 20oz. of Dr. Pepper.  I just wanted to and I didn't care about the weeks I had gone without - it was just what I wanted to do!  

With the help of being busy, running the kids to school, prayer from Facebook friends, exercising, and my quiet time I was able to fight off this urge to just do what I wanted to do - SIN!  Let's not sugarcoat what it really is!!  May be silly to some, but this is my thing I deal with - among others - weigh in day is tomorrow!  

Lord Jesus - even though i should not be amazed at how you speak to me - I was!  I open my Bible this morning to the randomness of today's date in the Psalms.  No real reason, but just went with it!  Ask the Lord to speak and this is where He did - no magic, just Him and me!  

Ps. 19:12-14  12 Who can discern his errors?        Forgive my hidden faults.

 13 Keep your servant also from willful sins; 
       may they not rule over me. 
       Then will I be blameless, 
       innocent of great transgression.

 14 May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart 
       be pleasing in your sight, 
       O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

Lord, it was beautiful - here I am struggling with something that seems so stupid, but I wanted to do what I wanted to do.  And you take me to verse 13 that has David screaming out - Lord, keep me from willful sins.  From what I understand those willful sins are things that are premeditated!  Things that you are fully conscious of doing, but just want to!  In the Message it calls them "stupid sins".  It also reminds me of the DO-DO sin chapter in Romans 7.  

And David's next words are a plea that those willful sins not rule over him.  How true is that for me Lord - I can let the stupidest thing - sin - rule over me for a period of time!!  I can get all caught up in something - sin - and let it ruin my day, week, or even month!  Oh Lord - help me!!  

Father I too want to be blameless and innocent of great sin!  That is why even though this Dr. Pepper thing may not be a big deal to some, if I don't nip these little things in the bud then how in the world am I ever going to take take of the big things through Him????  He does require some work on my part!  

The final prayer of my day is verse 14 - my words and thoughts be pleasing to You!!  Oh Lord - protect me from me!!  Jesus - thank you for speaking to me today!!!  May this prayer Speak Thru me to others!!  I love you amen!  


Anne Hardman said...

Leigh, you are so right when you say that if we can't nip these little things in the bud then how are we ever going to be able to take part in the bigger things God has for us. So true and exactly what I needed today. And, ironically, I've been trying to stop drinking sweet tea and sodas too. It's the sweetest moment ever when all of the sudden we realize in our humanness that God is there and He really does see and He really does care about all, and I mean all our needs and desires. Oh, how I want to lead that sinfree life for Him, always bringing glory to His name in all I do and say. Thanks for the blog today! I'll be praying for you and your diet coke struggles! :)

Speaking Thru Me Ministries said...

Hey Anne - so good to hear from you! Sure do miss you and the clan!! Hope things are going well for you! Got my water bottle right here in front of me!! Dr.Pepper shall not win today!! Press on my sister!! Love, Leigh

DeeDee said...

Hey Leigh,
I sooooo understand. A few years ago our church went through the 40 Days of Purpose and our pastor(my husband) asked all of us to fast from something for those 40 days. One of the things that I fasted from was Dr. Pepper. (I was an addict:) I also asked God to take the desire away from me during that time.
And He did.

Now, that does not mean that I will never drink another Dr. Pepper. I have had a few since then. And they are good when I have one. :) But I no longer crave it. I no longer HAVE to have it.

From one 'Pepper addict to another... I am praying for you.

Sweet Blessing!

Denise said...

Woo Hoo, press on my friend, press on.

Michele Williams said...

Great post! I have some things I too need to nip in the bud.. thanks for the reminder.

Yolanda said...

Those little things trip me (us) up so!!! Great word today.