Saturday, May 05, 2007

320 - He is so Faithful

Last night I spoke at Star General Baptist Church in Eldorado, Il. It was one of the hardest speaking experiences to date. One hour before I left i started running fever again. (I have had strep throat, that will not let up, all week.) We ate a delicious dinner that i really could not taste and then moved our way into worship center. All the way to the worship center, it was a short walk, I had a coughing fit. We sang 2 old hymns that I have not sung in years - it was beautiful!! But i didn't dare do anything but mouth the words as I knew it would surely lead to coughing. As we were singing or they were, i got really emotional. The song was Trust and Obey. That is exactly where I was at. I was totally deplete of myself and had nothing to give certainly physically, but even mentally could i even get the words to come out. Then it was my turn!

I walked up on stage and did my thing, but it was so hard and different. I will tell you, Praise the Lord, I maybe cough 2 little times the whole time i was up there. The hard part was being so emotional. I cried about every other word. I am a crier when i talk about my Jesus, but this was just like any sentence. In fear of coughing i could not really get vocally passionate like i usually am - I am not quiet. I did have energy to walk around, I am a walker. So all in all, it was not me. It was hard because I am not sure how it affected the other people.

My mother in law came to hear me for the first time. That was nerve racking, but sweet of her to come to a "foreign" church all by herself. There were several other ladies from my own church that came by as well. That was very kind of them. One sweet lady, she told me she was 82, just hugged and loved on me and said, "yes, darling, i understand, I will be Radically Obedient. Even at 82 I will obey." That was all i could handle. I just lost it one more time. All the ladies were soooo kind and sweet, but i have no clue if anything came out the way it was suppose to. I will just trust and obey.

So now I am back at home taking care of Clay as he has it now and my littlest, EL. Clay and I both woke up last night with 102 temp. Well actually i woke him up sobbing just exhausted and sick of being sick. How long can this continue? Will we ever get over this, at this point I have no idea. How long do you have to have strep before you develop Rheumatic Fever??? Isn't that what you can get.......... At this point my mind has gone many places. It is the weirdest thing that my body along with the medicine is not kicking this thing. It is quite scary if i am honest. To not have your body working - it is a new thing. Maybe it is what the 30's do to you... But really how can I even complain when "Especially Heather" is going through what she is.... Oh Lord, forgive me! You are faithful, we made it through and I pray You were glorified!

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Leigh,
I am a friend of Nikki's - Taylor's teacher too. My son Sam was actually in EJ's class before you moved -

I had the same problems with strep after having my son - At 34, I had my tonsils taken out and I felt better instantly - even ate mashed potatoes on the way home from KFC. (Now that's a true southern woman, isn't it?)

Having my tonsils taken out wasn't nearly as bad as the cases of strep I had experienced. It is porbably time for you to see an Ear, Nose and Throat specialist. One of you has to be a carrier of the germ - I pray that you all feel better soon! I enjoy your blog - and if you think the 30's hold joy - wait until 40 - I am t minus 29 days and counting...(til turning 40) I'm 39.9999999 and hanging on - God Bless!
Kim Staples

Leigh Gray said...

Hey Kim - it is so great to her from you - wow, it is really special. I had no idea you even knew i was in the blogging world. I gues Nicki K. is the connection.

You are never going to believe this... 2 of my kids got their tonsils out last Jan. and I had mine out in college and we are still getting this. Oh AND my husband Clay doesn't have his tonsils either. It is a weird strep throat because we have had every symptom except the sore throat... I just don't know what to do. My fever has broke for now and so if I am not better by Monday I am going to go to a diferent doctor. They don't treat strep over here with the shot and that is about the only thing that will erradicate it from my house!!! I just have to make the doctors believers.

Hopefully we will make it. ha! Great hearing from you - please keep in touch!
Leigh

Patty said...

Leigh,
I have been praying for you!! I am so sorry you are going thru this horrible sickness. I am asking God , right now, to intervene on your behalf and remove this from your body. I understand your pain, I can't kick my sickness. I finally got the doctor to prescribe me some cough medicine because I was coughing so hard, I was losing everything I ate. It didn't work. I have been so out of it. I have gotten some better but I am going to have to go back to the doctor if things don't change. I am believing God to come and help you and me!! Maybe God is getting ready to do a "new" thing in our lives and the enemy is fighting us. Whatever it is, God is BIGGER!!!

Love,
Patty

CrownLaidDown said...

Hi Leigh,

I prayed for you last night...the Lord brought you to mind (the purse is a good reminder, too!)

I heard there is something going around here (CO) with the symptoms of strep, but is a flu...check it out with your doctor.

Praying you're better soon! Oh and my cousin's wife wants the link to your purses... :)

Do you have something I could post on the side of my blog to show off what you're doing?

Blessings,
Holly

Beloved said...

Leigh,
Just wanted you to know that I'm praying for you and your family. I know its just awful when everybodys sick.
Amy

Tracy Hurst said...

Leigh,
I am so proud of you! You allowed the Lord to have control of your emotions, will and body as you ministered to those ladies last night. Do not worry about how they were affected - it's all about Him! You have said it yourself in your blogs - we just need to be obedient and He does the rest! Your love for Him is so beautiful and I know that through you God ministered to them! I have studied tears in the bible and did you know that intense crying can be a form of what the scholar's call "liquid deliverance?" Those women were being healed through your tears!

I gave a baby shower yesterday and I was all over the place (this was funny b/c I am usually a "together" type person), but even with all my dropping of gifts (yes, can you believe this) I have to believe that b/c I was obedient to throw the shower for this precious first time mother at the age of 43 - that she and her guests were blessed. The Lord told me this morning - get your eyes on me and trust that what I call you to do was blessed!

You and I are so honored to speak about our Lord and Savior! I sure hope to hear you speak sometime! Blessings my sweet sister and I call forth healing over you and your family in Jesus' Name!

Terry Kielhorn said...

Dear Leigh,

I am the girls Sunday School teacher. I missed the girls today in class.

I am so sorry to hear that you and your family are feeling so bad. You know that the Word tells us there is the power of life and death in the words we speak(Proverbs 18:21). Speak life and health over yourself and your family. A positive confession is a powerful way of using the Word that God has given us.
He has already told us that by the stripes of Jesus we are healed (Isaiah 53:5),& that He sent His Word and healed us, (Psalms 107:20).

Close the door to the enemy who wants to take you out of commission. He (the enemy) is seeking whom he may devour.. but we are equipped with the Word of God and no weapon formed against us can prosper. He (the enemy) HAS to GO.... (Submit yourself therefore to God, resist the devil and he WILL flee, James 4:7).And it is sure obvious that you are submitted to God, therefore the enemy doesnt stand a chance.

Of course he is trying to stop your ministry... that is his job...(he came to kill, steal and destroy). He doesnt bother those who are not making a difference. Take back your ground, Mighty Woman of God!... Get mad and with the weapons of your warfare.... fight ! I will stand in agreement with you that you and yours are healed, healthy and whole and that God, who is your rear guard, will put His covering over you.

In His Service &
Praying for You!

Leigh Gray said...

Terry - thank you thank you thank you for your Words of wisdom and words for battle. I am not sure I have ever been through something so crazy. We will press forward - you all keep praying and I will keep listening and obeying!!! I am excited for Friday!!!

Thank you, Leigh